This one is going to be different. I made no outline on this, so it's going to be all over the place. So let's get into it
There are times when I am writing on here on substack, that I start to question it at times. Sometimes I wonder what the hell I am doing? Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy writing the material. It gives me time to think, and look into topics that I would have never talked about in the first place.
Yet, there are days when I question it. Why am I doing this? What is it that makes me continue to write, even though my writings may be ignored? I’m not what you call an expert, I'm a person pretending to be a dragon online while sharing its thoughts and ideas. That’s the simple explanation of what I can give. The long explanation? For those who are willing to read and listen, let me get a bit more into detail.
Why am I doing this?
That’s the question that has been circling my mind lately. The main reason is that I want to be able to create an income with this and be able to do this as my job. Now, is it selfish that I want to get income from this? Perhaps. But if you put in time and research into your craft, wouldn’t you want to get an income from a skill that you are practicing?
The second reason is so I can share my ideas here. I’m going to be honest here, and say that there is a strong chance that I may not be well received. Part of it is sharing my ideas, Another factor is being in the furry fandom. This is the reality that I face, but I am willing to put up with the criticism.
As far as I can tell, I’m one of the very few people who does a blog and talks about philosophy. At least when it comes to the furry fandom. I could be wrong about that as well.
Even though writing can feel like a slog, I wake up every day feeling motivated to write something. That is because I don’t want to end up stopping, and then not getting back to it again. I did that once when I suffered burnout. Took me forever to get myself back into the habit of writing.
Before I started here on SubStack, I was on a writing platform called Medium. Keep in mind, that it was under a different name back then. When I first explored it, I loved the idea of being able to share my ideas with like-minded people. I signed up and started putting my writing skills to the test.
It was a rough start at first. There was a lot to learn at the time. While I wanted to do my writing in my style, I started to notice something. I noticed that a lot of writers were saying that if you wanted to be an expert on something, you had to choose a niche and do only that.
I started reading more articles on here, and there was different advice on what you should and should not do.
I attempted to niche down and decided that was all I was going to write about. I hated it. I hated the fact that it wasn’t something that I wanted to write about and more about what was popular. While I will admit that I was getting followers, it started to stress me out. The amount of reading that I did started to get to the point where I hated reading.
I don’t remember the day exactly, but after posting one more article on Medium, I felt my brain shut off from writing. I had no desire to write anymore. Fuck, I didn’t feel like picking up a book to read either. I ended up leaving Medium without saying anything. That was back in 2018. Took a break for about 2 years.
Didn’t get back into writing until the pandemic was going on. At the time, we were on lockdown, so there wasn’t much that I could do outside.
Writing is a skill. It is a skill that is easy to learn, but difficult to master. There is no right or wrong way you can improve your writing skills. Even though I still struggle to read, I still attempt to learn new things every day. To make sure that I can still keep my brain engaged in things.